As I work from home, staying in is not that unusual. But planning for not going out for another 9-10 weeks is another story.
I noticed that I was reeling, juggling lots of ideas and lists, worrying about what I needed to do first while still seeing clients online. Part of my office/workspace is now affectionately called my 'war room' complete with 'battle plans'. Ok, A3 sheets of paper with notes, to-do lists, mind-maps and the like. A smaller version now exists in the kitchen for the household plans. I do like to be organised.
I think that is the problem (being organised) and, this has pushed that to the limit or supercharged it. Our usual day to day routines have gone out the window and left a void. I'm not talking business stuff, firstly appearing in the void was the home stuff. We pay our bills at the post office, find out what's on the TV in a magazine bought at the newsagent, prescriptions were due... and so on. As mum is vulnerable, neither of us are leaving the house - at all. It's very mundane but essential to our lives.
Our local Sainsbury's store is fantastic and has been delivering food. It took several days to arrange to pay the bills online. (I do worry about what most older people are doing about that, for them gong online is not necessarily an option.) Our chemist (they know us by our first names) are delivering our prescriptions. Did you know you can get digital copies of TV magazines! Though I feel guilty not getting it in my local newsagent who holds a copy for us every week.
But my mind can overwork - so not only have I sorted out these necessary items but I have also thought about what I would have gone go out to buy. Those of you who know me well will not be surprised that coffee was on this list. Thank god for Nespresso delivery, I'm all stocked up! Mum, on the other hand, is quite calm, she lived through the war and rationing.
I had to give myself a day off, from it all to regroup - mainly my mind. Through the window, the street looks the same; it is only the lack of noise from the primary school that tells you something is different. Watching the news and seeing the pictures of empty London streets are hard to reconcile with my front room view. Deserted streets in London and around the world could almost be movie sets - sadly, they are real. I realised a small part of me is finding it hard to believe it is real. Not the virus, I know that is real, no I mean everyone staying at home, lockdown e.t.c.
We are very fortunate; our lives have not changed that much; it is only fear telling me it has. And not my fear but the collective fear. That tangible energy that is seeping into my life and I am repellingstepping back into the calm, the inner peace, my centre - whichever term resonates with you. A greater part of me is confident it will be ok, and that is the voice I am going to listen to.
My Soul and Spirit Guides are with me; we are all in this together. I know things will get tougher before they get better. I reckon by week 4/5 I will go a little stir crazy. It might take a lot of meditating or wine, to get past that. There is a post that keeps appearing on social media; it says - If you can't go outside, go inside. Inside - into the depth of you, your Soul, your inner voice, and knowing. Absolutely.
My heart goes out to those of you who's lives have been drastically changed my this I hope you find your way through it and come out the other side as unscathed as possible.
Take care. Stay Safe. Be well.
Thank you so much for this inspiring post. These are difficult times we are living, I really feel this situation is messing with our emotional balance and grounding, for several reasons (change of habits, not being able to do things we love...). In the midst, Its wonderful to have your support, your reassurance that Spirit is there for us and to know that you will continue to be there for Healing and Guidance Work. Once again, thank You! Sara C.
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